A Goodbye letter to the daughter of time...

  At the time of your birth, I know, u were treated like a girl child born in our society..You escaped from the female infanticide as u were the child of time. You made man realize that time is the only thing that he cannot control..Thanks to the inability of technology…. 2012…u were welcomed with a fear that u may be the last child of mother time ,as if this world is going to send u back with no wounds and regrets!!! …

Thank the Mayans …They gave you the chance to see how man would treat you if u would have been the last child..!!!!

I know u would have seen few great moments in your life and lots of dark pages of future history of our nation as well as our world.. I don’t know how much u suffered in the hands of the children of mother Earth… Known for her patience, she herself was tempted by her own children to fire out her anger in all possible natural calamities (Sandy, Neelam are no exceptions!! ) …What would u poor daughter of time do…!!! U remained silent filling up your pages of diary..

              To me personally, you were a glass of fresh fruit juice served for a person who lost himself in Sahara desert. You gave me the brightest path for my life.. You showed me the motherliness which none of your father, grandfather nor your forefathers had…

                                   You opened all windows of my small world and made me look out..The brightness of the external world disturbed my eyesight at times…But u patted me saying “This is your right time to step out and know your world” just like a mother bird pushes its small ones to make them learn flying. Though initially I trembled,  I started following your path blindly believing the fact that the daughter of time would never let me down..I know …U test me before u teach me a lesson..…I started  flying…..

Time came when the door of my destiny was opened again by you through a golden key…I know… I am still flying…The confidence that you gave me makes me fly higher and higher…As long as you were with me….It would have been my illusion…..But I strongly believed that the world was safe and no records were written on your diary with the blood of the children of mother earth… Few were written…I know…But it did not tear your pages…as it happened to your forefathers…You managed well just like a women manages her family, career ….multitasking indeed!! Congrats..…

                I didn’t want  to let you go…Even the world didn’t want to…But as I said….Your mother..TIME…is the only brave woman who can escape from the children of mother earth ( !!???) They are no more children….Even she felt that her daughter 2012 is not safe to be here on earth….And so she is taking you back….!!!!!!!

I know your mother is not irresponsible….and she will replace you with a new son/daughter…God knows….Thank god…She cannot be scanned to know that…Again thanks to the inability of technology….

Red carpet welcome to the new child 2013

Your replacement can be a better one…But how will I fly high without you as u were the one who took me greater heights…!! I know..You may handover few of your responsibilities to the upcoming new child of mother time in the preface of its diary….And I know you will always have a special phrase and request to ur sibling to hold my hands to further heights…But still will miss u… Neither man nor you, can control each other…!!!!!!!! This is the magic of human life on Earth… 

Welcoming your sibling to this world..Expecting your sibling to be a Universal reformer and bring about the real sunrise for the universe as well as to take me to the other side of my golden doors of my destiny started by you….Hope the new one has golden pages of history.....Cheers to the new birth…!!!!!

 Wishing you all a HAPPY NEW YEAR…. 

WELCOME 2013.............:) :)

IIT gave birth to version 2.0

7 became my interesting number in those few days of my benchmark days of my memories....I knew....These days I am enjoying are not gonna be as I am experiencing now...Being in the palms and care of my parents and my city...all these 20 years...My mind and heart was just gazing around with a weird thought all the time...

My mind still wonders how my words came true just like that as I uttered  them....I was just kidding with my mom and dad...."Just watch and see....I will be out of the home well before July 2012 and that would be my deadline for my next step of my life"....And so it happened my admission on July 25th and my first official day on July 30th.... Ahh....... Can that be expressed in just words....

With few days in hand....I felt like as if a girl is getting ready to go to in-law's home ;) Check lists, Packing  big big suitcases, luggage  new stuffs...and what not...Getting ready for a hostel life is not such an easy job... At that time I felt why can man construct a portable HOME...(Not a house...! ) rather that shifting things abruptly....

First time I felt that every room at my home had so much messages to convey to me.....My television told in my living room said... " U are leaving without using me effectively till the end...!" My kitchen had the hidden tears of my mother....My pooja room...had so much of  send off blessings....I could feel all these all around the walls of my home....

Carrying all these thoughts ....I stepped into my new world which invited me with lot of syllabi...Not technical...But syllabus of life... :) :)

I just didn't see the new world around me alone..I had a chance to see a new world that my mom and dad had within them....I don't want to see the same in them again like that in my life time...I still remember the place at GC where I said a painful bye to my mom and dad.....

First time I felt I won’t get those days where things were done for me well before I needed them, the care and shoulders that were making me strong...and what else...I felt as if I was the only person living on this earth....

It was just few days before, 7 was an interesting number...But whiling away those first 7 days at the campus was.....Hmmm,....The green trees appeared to be like withered trees....Green forest made me feel like as I was in a haunted place... The ornamental horns of deer appeared to be weapons to kill people....and what not...!!!!! These things just made me drag my foot behind the step I took...This all happened for no reason...

Then started a different phase of this haunted life....My new hostel...which was right all along with family, kids, grannys and grandpas.....and made me feel at home....I felt now everything started to fall on place...

Few things that made me feel better..... was the welcome party given by our seniors.......!!!!!! Ooops....Party???? Oh.....Can this happen in my life???? With all these I started experiencing that new episode.....My first trip with not much familiar classmates (Infact deftly not now..... :) :) ) My first anonymous group work for funny activities...My first dance (!!) ....But it was a great and well planned entertainment at the ECR road that made our class feel easy in next few days in getting to know people....

Next.....People were chasing me with the word change.....I never wanted them to give them a chan(g)ce... :P :P But things happened just like that....It was a cold war between individualism Vs Team.......My determination.....reached its hardest core path test......Had weird experience of coming late to class with no reason....Coming late to class with no reason was really a new experience filled with thrill.... :P :P 

Then just days rolled on ......IIT- ians to a temple was seriously a thing  something like Tamil Nadu having surplus of power to my perception....!!!! A trip to Parthasarathy temple with my friends always takes the place of  first best moments of my IIT life.....How can I not thank my good friends who made it possible.... :) :) 

 

Yes in fact IIT gave me a clear definition of so many words that I just gazed through in my life in newspapers and big screens...It gave me all feel like laughter, friendship, cry, decision making, people handling, fear, thrillzz, risks, and what not...!!!! I seriously dont know in what idea Chetan told "What not to do at IIT??? ". Its true.... But for me....."Who else can be a better mentor that IIT in one's life?".... If 4 months stay here can teach me this much .....Then how much should I blog at the end of my 4 semesters???? :P :P 

More than a Master in Construction,  I guess at the end of this journey IIT will help me a dual degreeMasters...Masters  my own life.....I know....I am bunking few classes of MY LIFE  here at IIT...But hope it will be compensated soon...:) :) :) 

My eye saw "I"

The road was going on and on...Just like a long highway travel. Same toll gates, same rushing vehicles on the track travelling along with me on the same lane...Some were rushing...Some were lagging long back the lane.. Was badly bored of all these stuffs and wanted a change over on my travel. In long run my eyes saw a deep green road which disturbed my travel and so went along as my mind said....

           The road was a bit tough to proceed further and sometimes made me feel bad whether I have dared to take a broad leap.With lot of determination , finally stepped into a grassland which was a new world that made me forget the highways and the tiresome journey which was all along.

Finally reaching my new world, stepping into IIT it took some time to understand where I am and how to mold myself to be the survival of the fittest. Taking time for that I was wandering all along with the herd of deer with lots of thoughts all around.There came the opportunity to relax and spend time on myself.

Among the hectic classroom schedules at IIT, where prof enters the class with a plan of activities for the day, it made us enthusiastic to see the prof who was well present in the class  before the students and welcomed  with a warm and bright smile.

The disclaimers were the ultimate for the entire course that in fact attracted  everyone towards this course!!!! I even used to wonder how management people alone are able to use disclaimers as  strategies!!!! Hmmmm..this was my first learning from this course indeed...!!!

Then days rolled on with the same enthu from the prof always , at times missing from the students....No doubt the criminal was the sun on the top of our heads....!!!!! :P

Giving a brief idea on life skills and attitude..The days rolled on with so much of learning.... In fact our class was just seen as stars on sky scattered all over.But this course made us first time to feel the galaxy of  our department. People came to know each other better and the credit of bringing 8 states  under the single roof of learning and enjoyment. This course taught us life lessons and along with that how much a prof can be friendly with students and get a special place in their hearts. In fact it was a learning on learning .....which will go all along in all our lives.....

BEHIND THE SCREEN OF THE WORLD OF A SINGLE GIRL CHILD

On stepping into the world, a child perceives its complete world through the eyes of its mother. From that split second, the child considers that everything dwells with its mother. As days roll on, the baby will recognize that its world is being communal by yet another soul in the name of a sibling. From that moment it starts understanding that at any moment its world can be shared by anyone and starts apprehending the reality. But in the same case when a child cannot see a share of its life with anyone for more than 20 years it would be like a renaissance every time it realizes a share in its property. 

Especially when a girl child enters into the family as the first and the only child it is an unbreakable truth that even the world sometimes fails to understand the bitter truth of her life. From the day one, never mind how the world sees her, but she will be the little princess and she will craft a virtual new, beautiful world for her father. He will be the first ever best hero for her in life.

Everytime she feels proud to say that  she has one hero to save her and to stand by her side at any cause. Her life rolls on as a free and colorful butterfly flying free all around the world.Everytime she meets a boy of her age in her life she always feel proud to introduce her father with her hands on her dad’s shoulder saying “He is ma dad”. 

 At the same time a mother gives birth to a girl child she loses her world that she lived till the previous day. She turns back to a child again and starts growing along with her daughter to make her understand what all the features are and happenings of a girl in this world are.

At the instinct of her teenage she will look upon a different dimension of the world, for which she will take so much time to understand what the reality is! She needs so much time to understand people around her. Only at that time she will realize that she had been in a cocoon for all this days, in the palms of her parents. She will find it so difficult to break the cocoon and come out. She will reach a paramount pain to face the real world which she had never thought of. Once she realizes the pain she will reach the most beautiful cum painful moment for her parents. But it is the most painful moment for a girl child to realize her responsibilities in the second part of her life. 

She will understand that she had been in a delusion all these days that she held the sole responsibility of protecting her parents. The moment she realizes that it was all an illusion, she will poke fun at herself with an inner pain. 

Once she holds hand with a man, who is her hero next to her father And that will be  the first time she is forced to share her world. She enters into a new world where she is laid with the responsibility to satisfy every soul of her new world at which she fails most of the time. 

 If the pain of a girl stands high on one side, the parents who treated her to be a princess every time in spite of her mistakes will always hang about in pain for exist in away of her.

Instances and happenings like this always make certain questions of a single girl child’s life unrequited